I stayed up with D while he worked late last night, so I didn't manage to get up early this morning. I didn't tell him my plans either because I know he'd laugh at me. I sometimes wish he'd take me a little more seriously. Oh well. There's always tomorrow, right?
D woke up just after 3:30am - to do even more work. I couldn't get back to sleep. This morning I have to go to the university to sign up for my access card. And I am terrified! I won't be allowed to park inside - so I'll have to park in the first year's parking area, and then walk... and walk...
I don't mind the walking part, at all. It's the people part that scares me to death. I lay awake trying to figure out how to get around the university without having to be seen that much. I feel like crying because firstly, it's really sad. And secondly, it's really silly too. I think I've developed a social phobia of some sort.
So I didn't have a very good start to my day. I just wanted D to hold me and tell me that it would all be okay, but I didn't want him to know how I really felt deep down inside (he has a lot going on with a work project right now). When he left for work I cried a little.
I'm trying so hard to be brave.
Ally
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Hi Ally,
ReplyDeleteEven though you may not feel brave, you are! Taking care of yourself, getting the courage to do that, takes so much bravery. Remember to put one foot in front of the other. Thanks for visiting my blog, btw. Your encouragement means a lot!
Kathy
(Aka Now is Finally the Time)
Hi Kathy
DeleteThank you so much - I read this on my phone as I was walking around, and it helped - a lot! Much appreciated. hehe
Thank you, again. :)